I'm a bit of a wreck head, always have been. I was with my ex for 11 years, had 3 children with her. Lots of mental abuse and some physical. I held it together for many years. When we split up I picked the kids up Fri and dropped them off Sunday night, gave her cash for the kids every week. The place I was lorry driving for at the time said they may not have any work for me for a couple of weeks. So I told her that I would give her some cash but not sure about the following week. The Monday after I got a visit from the police saying that I had been beating her up, plus hurting the children. Social services said I wasn't allowed to see the children and would have to go to court to get access to them (which I did) Got a phone call from the CSA saying i've never paid her any money.
My head just popped! I had to have some time off work and go on anti-depressants for a while.
Couple of years later and I started to get my life together. Nice wife, couple more children, nice house, car, caravan, do some stuff that I had always wanted to do, but not been allowed in the past. Got my SGC and started to do a bit. Just sent off my FAC application form, and just waiting on it.
I have a few ups and downs, don't take or need any anti-depressants.
I had some counciling which taught me to talk when things were getting on top of me. Also, I take one day at a time and not try to plan what I'm doing next week/month. The one thing I have realised is, you cannot get back to that person you once were, you will never be the same again. Just a different person, maybe even a better person?